Letting go for good.

I knew it hurts.

But i know you are happy.

And i know you are much better without me.

We both was hurt at once.

And i hope you'll be happy all the time.

Terasa seperti menulis.

Membuatkan malam ini 3 pos serentak.

Kebosanan tahap maksima atau jari ingin bersenam?

Kedua2nya pon mungkin :))))

Iya, saya agak kecewa.

Tidak mendapat peluang untuk sambung master disember ini.

Sangat kecewa.

Tapi tak apa, mungkin ada hikmah lain menanti siapa tahu :)

Kalau sambung julai ini, dalam umur 24, master dalam tangan :)

Tak sabar.

Kali ini harus memastikan, anugerah naib canselor.

Dalam tangan.

Wajib.

Impian yang belum terkabul.

Tercicir waktu sambung degree dulu.

Akibat semester 3 yang jahanam~

Impaknya masih terasa hingga kini.

Nebes.

Master oh master.

Hikmah oh hikmah.

Rezeki oh rezeki :)

Back to the beginning.

When we begin to forget things.

Think back where we started.

Think who were there to support us.

And those who stayed and those who left us behind.

When something ended, doesn't mean the world end.

Its the sign that it is a beginning of another series of the story.

Something that you never discover earlier.

That there is something waiting ahead in your future.

Whatever happens.

Whenever it starts.

Remember, we will always need to go back to the very beginning.

Because it's the starting point of everything.

The beginning create us to be who we are now.

Be grateful for the parents you have.

Be thankful for what they did to you.

Be aware of how they feel.

Be responsible when they get old.

Remember, someday we'll have kids,family.

Believe in karma.

What you give you get back.

Put your parents ahead of anything else in the world.

Like i said, back to the beginning.

If there is no them, then there will be no you :)

Seldom

I do not spend much time on you lately.

I'm sorry for neglecting you.

I'm thinking of the best way to spend more time with you.

With great contents to share with.

To fill the boredom of those readers.

Hey, i have readers?nahhhh~

perasan saja.

Hey yes, i have a story to share.

Today is quite a bad day for me.

Since yesterday i have been shocked by posted wrong letter to a wrong address!

Hell no!

Can u imagine i woke up yesterday morning and my heart pumped so fast.

It really got me nerves!

The whole day i can't stop thinking.

Tried to stay calm.

To smile even though hell its worried inside.

I just can't stop thinking.

Today, i feel quite relief since the courier services that served us at the office told us that i'll get back the letter by tomorrow! oh my goodness!

Thank you Allah.

Hey, its really a good lesson for me ogey!

I am really feel grateful since everything happened while i'm still during my probation period and it really teach me good experience.

Calm myself down.

Its a great song to listen to.

Hope it's entertain and keeps you calm bloggers. :)

Music

Is my best companion.

You be the rhythm and i'll be the lyrics,

and we'll be a complete one.

Currently playing~

Nelly..just a dream.

The road not taken yet.

Resource

I still have much time to think.

There's lot of things are crossing my mind.

Don't let me think twice.

Or else i'll be choosing the road not taken yet.

Keeps on questioning myself.

Of the best way to solve.

The best decision to make.

The good way to speak out what's deep inside.

You'll never know.

Cause i still don't.

Konvokesyen telah berlalu.

Sahabat handai sekelas saya. SEkecoh sebising, seriuh, dengan saya. Hey, sayang kalian :)

Buah hati saya :)

KEgembiraan kita bersama, tidak akan dilupa.

Sayang kalian.

MEnunggu masa untuk berkongsi gambar yang ada.

Keterujaan yang dirasa :)

BAhagia bertemu semua kesayangan saya.

Walaupun ada sesetengah hilang dari pandangan mata.

TErima kaseh untuk anda.

MEnghadirkan diri sebagai jurugambar merangkap pengepit saya :)

TErasa bagai artis pulak haha siap dua photographer mengiring :B

Memeriahkan majlis konvokesyen saya.

Bersama handai dan keluarga tercinta.

Anda tahu siapa anda.

Terima kaseh tidak terhingga buat En nijar dan rakan.

:)

Tapi beliau?

I think i think too much.

Too much to think.

And i think its not worth it.

Understand + Cope & Change = Better & Best.

Nothing much to be done.

Nothing much requested.

Just some understanding.

Cope yourself.

Change a little.

The result, believe me.

Always the better and the best.

Can't you see?

The changes will bring you to a better route :)

And the best way is to cooperate and communicate.

Easy? Aite?

Tanggungjawab tidak putus selagi nyawa anda belum menemui tarikh luput :)

Dipikul.

Bersama masalah peribadi yang tersembunyi.

Diolah seolah tiada apa.

Mahu diluah tetapi mulut tidak bisa berkata.

Kekusutan.

Yang membuatkan diri binasa.

Masa.

Yang semakin mengejar dan membunuh kita.

Hidup.

Diteruskan dengan memastikan semua bahagia.

Walhal.

Yang tersirat tiada siapa bisa merasa.

Jari.

Menekan butang yang ada.

Untuk mencoret sesedap rasa.

Seolah sudah biasa bercengkerama.

Seakan bersajak sahaja gayanya.

Cheers.

Tanggungjawab tidak akan pernah lupus selagi nyawa anda belum menemui tarikh luput :)

Terus seterus dan seterusnya.

Meneruskan apa yang perlu.

Meneruskan apa yang harus.

Terus menerus melakukan apa yang belum terurus.

Menguruskan segalanya.

Kepala sakit.

Tekak pedih.

Otak letih.

Mata rabak.

Kaca mata power bakal membuak-buak.

Membuatkan hati panas menggelegak.

Banjer merisaukan hati saya.

Ya Allah.

Moga dijauhi segala bencana.

Moga darurat dihindarkan dari kami sekalian umat.

Ya Allah.

Surutkan lah air yang mengalir.

Selamatkanlah jiwa yang sedang bertarung.

Permudahkanlah segala urusan mereka.

Ya Allah.

Bantulah mereka yang dalam keadaan kritikal.

Bantulah mereka agar mereka cukup makan dan selesa tempat tidornya.

Amin.

Makan. yang tak berbaloi.

Hah, cerita hari ini.

setelah sekian lama tidak merayau2 melepak2 dan memakan2.

Semalam telah berjaya mengeluarkan diri, menghilangkan bosan sejenak.

haaaaaa.

Teringat cerita di ofis.

salah seorang officer menceritakan bagaimana makanan beracun tapi berjaya melepasi sekatan malaysia sedangkan di negara laen, mmg di banned.

Aku bertanya kenapa malaysia?

Hemmm. dia kata aku patot masok persatuan pengguna.

Ha, harini berjaya sedikit menjadi pengguna berhemah.

Makanlah disatu restoran ni.

Order sup campor ye.

Harap maklum sup campur.

Yang sampai sup sayur ye.

Yang ade ayam dua tiga ketul.

MEmangggg panas la kan.

haha.

Pegi bayar, adek aku cakap sup campur.

tak pulak lima henggettttt harga dia kan?

hahaha mmg TAKKKKKKKKK la kan aku nak bayar lima ringgit.

pegi kaunter, cakap, pakcik, saya order sup campur. tapi caj lima ringgit.

So?

Dia refund balek dua rengget.

Bukan berkira, tapi nak mengajar.

Tak berbaloi.

dahla tak sedap.

Melayu oh melayu.

Duduk tenganga je kat kaunter tu.

Cakap layan tak layan

Oh melayu.

SApa nak tolong melayu mcm ni?

Memang TAK la kannn aku nak gi makan situ lagi. tq.

The feel of being needed by somebody.

We don't need much.

We don't request money as much as at the bank.

We don't ask for gold.

Even for platinum.

What we all need as a woman is just a little piece of attention.

And care and concern.

Because we do give much.

And we don't ask for the payback.

We just need what is call attention.

That's all needed by what so call woman.

The only girl.

I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...

Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...

Enak

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFhqvz8ssJo&feature=player_embedded

Enak.

Menelaah.

Kembali?

Haruslah.

Ada sesuatu untuk ditempuh ni.

Nebes.

Sangat.

Amin.

Doakan yang terbaik.

Saya benci bendera merah.

Membuatkan semuanya tak stabil, kacau bilau, haru biru, kelam kabut~

Benci bendera merah.

sEkian.

Syuuuh, p men jaoh2.

Keterujaan menyambut ulang tahun kelahiran yg ke 22.

Saya suka ulang tahun kelahiran saya yang ke 22 yeay! Sayang kaka-kaka dan abang-abang sekaliannn!ummmmwaaaaaah! Heart them. Wish to receive more gift tomorrow and tomorrow?

mimpi laah~hahahah , glad for the roses and cakes ;)

B u n g a.

Orked lah.

salah lah!

Bunga rose lah!

yaaaa, diterima dari semua rakan opis, oh tesenyum sepanjang hari.

Ini kek.

Iyeee. kek lah!

Sedap, thanx kaka kaka dan abang abang.

SAyang kalian.

Dibab sukaaaa ;)))))

Ini lagi satu kek, yang diterima. heeeee. Blueberry cake.

Sedaaap.

Licin ditelan kat rumah.

Heeee, thanxxxx lot! ;)

Ya, sangat.

Sangat lama menanti.

Detik 8 Oktober tahun ini.

8.10.10.

Nice.

heee.

Terasa bahagia dan disayangi sahaja.

Wall penuh dengan post dan komen2 chomel2.

ouh terima kaseh kalian.

Sayanggggg bangat!

Tak sabar menanti tahun depan pulak! weee.

8.10.11?

hahahahhha. Moga panjang umur murah rezeki.

Yeay!

sekadar ingin berkongsi.

Kek comel yg diterima, dan bunga yang dihadiahkan rakan sekerja di Shorubber.

Am glad and happy to be part of them ;) sayang kaka-kaka dan abang-abang sekalian ;)

Ceritera 8 oktober 2010

detik yang dinanti, detik yang ditunggu.

Kejutan di pejabat, membuatkan saya tersenyum sepanjang hari.

Juga sebijik kek blueberry, membuat saya terkejut!

Kek diberi, bunga rose sejambak juga diterima.

=) terasa disayangi.

tenkiu.

fullstop.

"Blurry"

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
there's no one left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

Cerita raya aidilfitri 2010.

Maen bowling raya ke 6?hahah hampeh sahaja.

Leen bam bam, kesayangan :)

Tengah bajet nak jadi gadis melayu terakhir :)

Sahabat, azni ku sayang :)

Anis debab!

oh, ini sahabat seperjuangan saya yang bersama sedari sekolah rendah! berjumpa dan merapatkan kembali silaturrahim antara kami! sangat rindu dengan yang lain lagi :)

Ini chek pora dan cik shida, hahaha gadis2 bekerjaya :)

Ini sahabat sekolah menengah, tak cukup yang mengambil bahagian ni, ramai ada hal masing2. haehhhhh.! sayang mereka!

geng geng tonggek!heheheheheh. muni, odie,peanut.

sayang kamu lah tonggek2 sekalian!

Meriah sambutannya.

Rumah terbuka di raya kedua.

Turut dihadiri mereka mereka yang tersayang :)

Melepas rindu yang sekian lama terpendam.

Sahabat dari sekolah rendah, tadika, sahabat atas sahabat, sahabat matrikulasi, universiti, macam2, ramai sangat :) best.

Kerjaya, kehidupan, dan restu.

Mana pilihan anda?

Anda berada di persimpangan dilema.

Antara 3.

Antara Ibu = restu, kerja = di depan mata, hidup = minat anda.

Pilihan yang sememangnya apa jua yang dipilih, salah satu hati pasti terluka dan kecewa.

Ya, berlaku sudah.

Sedih pun sudah.

Masa untuk redha dan berharap ada hikmah di sebaliknya.

AMin.

Hati remuk redam.

Semalam bad day my fren.

Harini bad day aku pulak.

Ase nak nanges sorang-sorang.

Terpikir hal semalam.

Keluar sampai tengah malam.

Tak cakap kat mak abah.

Bangun sahur pon tak bercakap dengan sapa2.

Datang keja pon ngadap laptop, bukan orang.

Dan tak cakap dengan sesiapa.

Maaf.

Harini hari buruk saya.

Tambah lagi tadi teringat nak beli sneakers.

Frust.

Lagi tambah nak nangis.

Tadak size.

Paling kecik.

7 1/2. nak golek2 sahaja rasanya dalam kedai tu.

Adik tu gelak tengok i kempunan.

Kasut-kasut.

Kaki kaki.nape techik sangat~~~

Mengidam.

Kaler hitam strike nike hijau.

Sangat cantek.

Orang laen sebok cari heels, oh no.

Salah kriteria kasut.

hee.

Terlupa saya gadis.

tapi tak kira! nak jugak~

anyone can take me to the manufacturing factory?

Nak dia custom made utk size kaki saye~~

please...

Psst~tetiba teringat time cari sneakers dulu.

Satu kl pusing cariiii dengan my brother n his gf.

Semua outlet kami jengah.

haaaaaa.

gilo.

At last jumpa kat mid or ou.

heememm.

Oh again~

Goodbye jobs, goodbye kuala lumpur, goodbye any state other than perlis.

Goodbye everything.

There's no hopes left.

Decide to stay and to stay.

Hey love!

Weee, can't wait to break the fast with the my love love and love.

Farhana and friends masa sekolah rendah.

Sekarang dah tua!

But still, connecting ;)

Bahagia.

Menunggu sahabat dari penang pula pulang esok.

Petang esok another appointment.

With friends purely from perlis kenal lepas habis matrix.

Oh rindu mereka ;)

Ngehehhehe~gedik nya arini.

Dikpit just make me smile.

hahhahahh

He made an article in utusan and putting my name in it. gehehe. credit dikpit~lalallala.

Besides,also picture of me but only for utusan at area kl and selangor maa~

;)

Its frustrating

When you get the opportunity but then something stopping you right before you grab the chances.

Morale down, seems like giving up.

big L for you.

LOSER!

Tersenyum, sendiri ;)

Alhamdulillah, rezeki akhir ramadhan, dan menanti kemunculan syawal ;)))

I tried & i'm tired.

Keep on trying.

Still.

To be the best among all.

To have the best in life.

To cheer you up no matter what happen to me.

To be around you.

To see you smile instead of sulking.

But.

I'm tired.

Of trying.

To be everything.

But worth nothing.

Hasil memberangsangkan siri ke 2~

Badan dan bontot. plus perot.

haesssh. Lengan tak payah cakap.

Peha lagi lah. memang sejak azali.

Bulat versi 8.

Bulat versi 9.

Bulat versi 10.

Ya, mari kuruskan badan di bulan puasa~tralalalala.

Hasil yang memberangsangkan.

Oh ya, sekadar berkongsi, hasil tinggal di rumah selama lebih 2 bulan.

Berkembang pesat tanpa rasa jemu.

Bagus betul.

Lihat gambar di bawah ini.

Oh ya Allah, da macam pipi selambak!!!

Gambar ini pulak, tengok tu, even takdak cheek bone, haaa, pipi naek chantek saja bila tersenyum. Kenapa? Itu menunjukkan isi dah padat kat pipi tuh!

Gambar bawah macam kurus sikit, tapi jangan tertipu. Dusta semata.

Gambar berbaju merah di bawah juga menunjukkan hasil yang fantastik. Ditambah dengan rona pakaian berwarna merah di tubuh. Bulat kan? Ya, nak tau apa rahsianya? Sini nak cerita~~

Yang terakhir! Taddaaaaa! Gambar dari sisi sebenar, fakta, kebenaran, asli, dari sisi hadapan!

Ya perhatikan disitu. Muka yang sememangnya bulat, gebu, tembam, montel, pakej baek punya.

Rahsia rahsia ramuan kegemukan dan ketembaman.

• Secuit kasih sayang bonda
• Sebekas air tangan bonda
• Seulas cinta bonda
• 100 gm leteran bonda
• 500 gm cubitan bonda
• 1kg salam dengan bonda pagi-pagi
• 2kg dakapan dan ciuman bonda
• Setiap hari masakan bonda
• Setiap jam mengunyap
• Setiap hari pon ayam di kedai mamak.
• hari hari bosan di hotel dan makan *ramuan khas

Perghhh~memang confirm terbaik nya lah pakej ketembaman ituh.

Tahniah kepada adibah ya, harap maklum kerana telah berjaya menaikkan berat badan sehingga hampir~~~TEEETTTT~ status dirahsiakan harap maklum.

JAdi saudara saudari sekalian, selamat beramal!

Gambar Senget

Herot petot.

Bakal memenuhi ruang blog ini.

Akibat bosan dan kekurangan sumber pekerjaan yang harus dilakukan.

harap maklum.

*nantikan.

Terluka dan melukai.

Harap dimaafi dan saling memaafkan..

To stay or not to stay.

Your life will be much more easier when i'm not around, f, m.

I'm sorry as we keep on quarreling on something silly and stupid.

As i made both of your life so complicate.

Feels like oh i'm really burdening both of you.

Sorry, sorry sorry.

Tersentuh.

Membaca.

Sesuatu.

Sesuatu yang dicoretkan.

Dicoretkan oleh seseorang.

Seseorang yang jarang meluahkan.

Meluahkan apa yang terpendam.

Terpendam dilubuk hati yang dalam.

Dalam sehingga sentiasa disalah tafsirkan dan diduga.

Diduga sehingga tahap kesabaran insan lain juga terduga.

Terduga oleh perkara-perkara yang tiada logika nya.

Logiknya akal bila hati tidak lagi berfungsi.

Berfungsi sejenak untuk mengadili mana yang palsu dan hakiki.

Maaf, sentiasa bersalah.

Saya kejam, harap maklum.

Rambut.

Pendek?

Hey welcome new hair :)

AUGUST 21,2010.

The more i try to avoid you, the more you try to attract me.

The more i try to hate you, the more i realize that i love you.

The more i try to walk ahead, you always be there stopping me to do so.

The more i try to leave you behind, your shadow always haunting me.

The more i try to forget you, the more i hallucinating bout you.

The more i try to empty the spaces for you, the bigger the spaces requested.

The more i try not to miss you, the more i think i do miss you.

"unknown"

Guys out there. *Mode MLTR

If u find yourself totally in love with somebody, keep her close.

If you really sure that she is yours, go for her, make her yours.

And when you surely don't want to see her tears dropping after seeing you, be fast, track her back, give her the confirmation that she is waiting for.

Or else, after some times, you will keep singing this:

After some time I’ve finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I’m searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I’m sorry ’bout the things I’ve done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s crying while she’s saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you traveled so far boy I’m sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I’m going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
Friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s cried while she’s saying this


Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said

Or else, you just might see her belongs to someone else..

Go for her? Let her go? Or keep her close?

You decide.

The distance

Separating family and me.

The fights.

Make us even further.

The happiness.

Might bound us together.

But how if i keep on being nagged by them.

Who can stand the ears to listen.

My mistakes my bad.

I realize.

But please, accept the way of living of a teenage girls mother.

At least a bit.

I don't wanna go.

I want to stay.

For good or for worst.

I'll be around.

Sedikit tentang. . . . .

Puasa hari ini.

Oh ya, dimulakan dengan hari ini, syif kerja ku 7am till 7pm.

Tetapi, agak bagus sedikit.

Hari ini aku tak rasa seperti sampah seperti 2 3 hari sebelum ni.

Tensen, serabut takda kes, bosan walau ada benda untuk dibuat.

Kenapa kah?

Aku pun tak pasti.

Rutin yang sama, tiada kerja, tiada tetamu.

Duduk saja. Mengadap delly sayang. Alang-alang dah bawak.

Dan, dah dua tiga hari jugak.

Ngidam nasik ganja.

Atau dengan nama lain.

Nasik ganja cik linda.

SEbelah umah tok aku saja~hahahha.

Makan sejak dari kecik lagi~

Rasa tak lari-lari..

Tekad tak makan nasik akhirnya lebur jugak harini.

hahaha.

oke lah, sekali sekala.

;)

Baek dari si gemuk tu.

HAhahahaha.

Gi bazar, sebok suruh orang beli itu ini~nak bagi ku gemok.

hahahahhaha.

U gemok sorang sudah!.

grrrr.

Mode:Tenang sedikit, Alhamdulillah.

Cerita tentang semalam, bonda ayahanda tersentak lagi dengan ku.

LAgi dan lagi.

Ya Allah, kalau aku jauh dari mereka itu lebih baik bagiku, jauhkan lah aku sementara waktu.

Jika termaktub olehmu aku harus berada di samping mereka, bukakanlah jalanMu utkku Ya Allah.

Aku dah..kehabisan..idea..

Semuanya..tak..kena..dimata..mereka..

PEnat sudah..

harap maklum..

Blood and red.

Are made as one.

Diba and delly.

Are couple.

We use to sleep together.

I hug delly.

I kiss.

I use to laugh in front of him,showing some happiness inside.

He keep being loyal to me.

Anytime i need him, he will be there.

That's his promise.

I need him.

As much as how i need him.

I use to write in front of him.

I use to drop my tears.

He knows everything.

My expressions, my feelings.

Delly~

Diba love you~

Don't leave me..

Would die for you..

Who will keep me company..

Who will see me laughing alone..

Who will keep on hearing my nag..

Who will see my tears dropping..

Delly,

if you ever know..

I feel very lonely~

Alone~

Got nothing to do..

I'm not used to this new routine of life..

I love the past..

When i used to use you everyday..

To do my work..

To chat with friends..

Have movies.

Everything.

I thought i was a fool for no one. oh baby i'm a fool for you.

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes
Each loving day
I know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

Every word I say is true
This I promise you..

Something to share, to read, and to understand.~

A friend of mine. "You know who you are"

Has said, her last goodbye.

Its hurt.

why?

For the sake of something that she loves so much.

For the sake of keeping the other heart very well.

She just good at it.

I knew it.

I know she did this for good.

Wish the best for you.

And hope you know that, i still hoping that, we will still be like before.

Like we used to be.

I just remembered every second we spend time together.

The time we used to hang out.

The time we had movie together.

The time you smoked, and i watched.

The time you laughed, and me too.

The time you cried, and we did cry together.

Just can't see you crying, while i am happy.

Cause you are just too good for someone to be with.

But someone who really understand how you act, why you do so, why you talk like that.

I wanna thank you.

For all your kindness.

All the sweet moments.

We had together.

I'm hoping that.

It will remain in your heart and memory.

Even though my phone number might not be available in your phone any longer.

And you do not sms me at all.

Love you dear friend. Only He know it.

Regards,

Diba.

So long~;)

Didn't write, talk, nag, and sharing.

Blog seems lonely.

pity you my dear.

You know what, i hate myself for hurting others.

But, seems that i often being hurt.

So what should i do and how should i handle this matter?

H

U

R

T

simple words, with only four letters.

but, big impact like it does have thousand and millions of meaning.

omg.

be prepared for this people.

you might not aware of being hurt.

but once you are.

you will never forget.

and you tend to give less than you get.

what does it mean?

i myself still don't discover this yet.

let us together then readers.

;)

Pertama dan akhirnya?

Sesuatu untuk dikongsi.

Iaitu nukilan hati.

Perasaan dalam diri.

Ikhlas dari hati kecil dan nurani.

Ramadhan pertama yang membuatku rasa tenang, dan betul-betul menghayati serta menghargai kedatangannya.

Yang membuatkan aku rasa teruja dengan kedatangannya.

Yang membuatkan aku menghargai setiap masa yang ada dengan aktiviti-aktiviti berfaedah.

Yang betul-betul membuatkan aku rasa sebak dan terasa seperti emas bertaburan didepanku.

Wah~sampai begitu kurasakan kedatangan ramadhan ini.

SUngguh. aku tak tipu.

Ramadhan yang membuatkan aku berjaya mengawal nafsu amarah, dengki, dendam, geram dan sebagainya.

Sungguh.

Aku cuba elakkan benda-benda yang negatif.

Dekatkan diri dengan yang lebih positif.

Ish ish ish.

Besarnya rahmat Mu kurniakan kepada ku Ya Allah Ramadhan ini.

Sesungguhnya aku bersyukur.

Amat.

Betul.

Nikmatilah,

hargailah,

rasailah,

selagi ia ada.

Tak lama pon, sebulan sahaja.

Tolak bendera merah, 3 minggu sahaja aku bersama mu ya Ramadhan~

SEtelah hamper 22 tahun menapak di bumi ni, baru ku sedar kemuliaan mu~

Ramadhan~

Thank You Allah,

I'm glad i'm still alive to appreciate what you give to us.

2nd of ramadhan~

Alone at hotel, again.

haha a long sigh~

but then, a friend of mine will drop by and accompany me to break the fast~

thanx to you~~

Tomyam campur, plus telur dadar~plus~air kelapa muda~

Suddenly i realized that i really enjoyed cooking.

I think that i will cook for this whole month.

Improve my cooking skills, upgrade the taste, so it will be very tasteful!

Besides, i also realize that i enjoyed updating my blog, so that i can read it back in the future.

So that i might know what had happened in my life, even not at all, but a bit, still it is valuable. ;)

Salam ramadhan!

Berita sedih mematikan hariku.

Blog, cubaan kedua dalam temuduga.

Gagal.

Sedih.

Dalam cubaan memotivasi diri sendiri.

Bagaimana?

Ok la tu diba, dari 10000, tinggal 200, dari 200, tinggal 24~

Dan kau tergolong dalam 24 tu..

Walaupun kau tak lepas untuk temuduga bersama CEO..

Tapi kau tergolong dalam golongan-golongan yang lebih berumur, berpengalaman, luas ilmu pengetahun, jika nak dibandingkan dengan kau yang baru umur tak cukup 22 tahun..Dan mereka semuanya sudah berumur 24 tahun ke atas~

apa yang kau harapkan~memang tak lepaslah nak bertanding dengan mereka-mereka itu..

Yang dah bekerja 5 6 tahun.. Kau pulak freshie je~ sape nak pandang~~

Kau terpilih untuk bersama mereka untuk temuduga saringan~

Ok lah tu..

Diba diba..

Perbaiki diri tu..

Lebihkan diri tu dari orang lain..

Jangan anggap orang lain tu lagi bagus~

baguskan diri anda dari mereka-mereka itu~

Haes~ kesedihan menyelubungi diri..

Kekecewaan menghantui diri..

SEmakin terasa rendah diri..

Alhamdulillah...

Ramadhan kembali lagi..

11 Ogos 2010.

Tarikh keramat.

Ramadhan yang memberiku peluang untuk menyambutnya kembali bersama keluarga di rumah.

Bahagia.

Sungguh.

Aku terlalu teruja menyambut ketibaan Ramadhan kali ini.

Apakah?

Mungkin akibat 3 tahun berpuasa di rantau orang.

Kembali di samping keluarga, di hari pertama berpuasa.

Memang terbaik.

Sahur pertama, di Yasmeen Changloon, bersama ayah bonda.

Nasik kandar sepinggan, ayam dua ketul ku bedal sorang, plus teh tarik pulak tuh.

Aiyak~

naseb lah esok puasa meh.

heeeeeeee~~~~

Oh Ramadhan, syukur syukur syukur.

;))

Semoga segala yang terbaek untuk Ramadhan dan Syawal kali ini.

Buat kalian juga,

diba doakan yang terbaik untuk semua.

Minta maaf segala salah dan silap..

Minta halal apa terlebih terkurang..

Moga kesenangan dan kebahagiaan milik semua.

Moga keindahan Ramadhan kali ini kita hargai dengan sepenuhnya.

Tiada siapa tahu, adakah ia mungkin Ramadhan terakhir untuk diba, untuk kalian?

Maaf ya.

Gadis yang baik diciptakan untuk lelaki yang baik~

Jadi, yang rasa diri itu jahat, ayuh mencari pasangan2 yang jahat~

Jangan menyeksa pasangan anda yang baek itu.

Yang baik, jagalah apa yang terdapat disisi anda itu.

Nescaya, anda tidak akan dapat lagi manusia sebaik seindah itu pada zaman ini.

Dear blog~

Tears, its been a while since your last drop.

You will regret

Have you ever been?

In a situation when?

You are like woke up from a long long dream.

And feels like wanna hurt and kill yourself.

When you let go of something priceless.

Very valuable in your life.

But you just realize when it belongs to someone else.

The one that you confident that might keep you on the right track of life.

The one that keep on praying.

Praying for the happiness of the love one.

Even though they themselves are suffering.

In order to keep you happy.

Ensure that you are always smiling.

Make sure that you have the greatest of all.

Nothing can change what had happened.

Nothing can turn back time.

We wish we could.

But we are just human being.

And why.

Why it happened.

If we could just wait for another second.

I will always be yours and you will always be mine.

Till death do us apart.

But then, we have to accept the fact.

That, what are meant to be not yours, will not still be yours.

What can we do is.

Keep on spending the quality time together.

It seems wrong.

But nothing else can be done.

So just pull the trigger..

p/s: it is just another story of what happened in the real life. it could be about you, you or me? or them? oh that's what we don't know. Could you all feel the wound?the hurt deep inside. the heart that are broken.

Sejarah kejadian yang tak pernah berlaku selama 8 tahun~

Pagi ini, datang ke kerja, omg!

Satu kejutan telah berlaku~

Petty cash di dalam laci hilang.

Wink wink wink.

Kasihan kurasakan apabila bib yang terjaga mencari-cari petty cash yang hilang.

Dan tak jumpa.

Masuk2 hotel dah kecoh.

Telefon sana sini.

Telefon pakcik, telefon makcik.

Sambil tu aku turut bergosip dengan bonda.

Oh biasalah, kami sahabat baek.

Pakcik dan makcik, seperti biasa, tenang.

Dalam hati siapa tahu?

Oh susah menjadi orang senang ini, hidup mereka sentiasa di ganggu orang.

Rumah dipagari, setiap hari solat hajat, "benda" mengekori sana sini.

Berubat tak berhenti.

hmmm.

Siapakah yang menjadi dalang itu?

Siapakah pencuri itu?

Siapakah yang mengambil petty cash itu?

Oh itu yang kita tak tau.

Haaaa..

Tetapi, kaunter ini cantik saja.

Sepertinya tiada kesan pencerobohan.

Hebat sungguh.

Langsung tiada kesan ditinggalkan.

Bib langsung tak sedar, orang masok di kaunter.

haeh.

Siapakah?

I am running.

Away. from you.

Clock is ticking.

Phone is ringing.

Finger keeps typing.

Hearts beating.

Eyes rolling.

Mouth yawning.

Yeah, this is just nonsense post.

bosan.

Just gonna stand there and watch me cry?

Title at the above not related to the post fyi.

The rooms at hotel are fully occupied.

Love the way you lie keep playing on mp4.

Alone at reception counter.

Task complete.

No jobs left to do.

Reading books, boring too.

What should i do then?

Keep watching people walk in front of hotel.

Observe.

Think.

Make assumptions.

Comel, comel comel.

Lagu sedap sedap sedap.

Bangun pagi pagi pagi.

Ngadap Delly Delly Delly.

Kiri, eh kanan, eh depan, eh belakang.

Eh, mana satu?

Eh, pilihlah?

Eh, susahlah.

Eh, semua nya ada tak kenalah.

Eh, yang ada menyakitkan hatilah.

Eh, ada yang baik.

Eh, yang menjaga.

Eh, yang menghiburkan.

Eh, yang baik.

Eh, mana satu?

Eh, biar DIA tentukan ;)

Kalau ada jodoh ada, tak kemana ;)

Sedikit tentang kerja 28 Julai 2010.

Menunggu guest yang tidak datang-datang.

Amat bosan.

Kerja seperti tiada.

Notebook peneman setia.

Wifi diguna sentiasa.

p/s : blog hari-hari terupdate angkara tiada komitmen yang tinggi.

Tahniah!

When you love, like and adore something~

It will never be yours.

Even though it is clearly in front of you.

Clearly seen by your eyes.

Tightly hold by your hands.

But still, you sure that it will never be yours?

Why?

The reason why is something that is hard to explain.

Things happened for 1001 reasons.

Don't you think so?

Why is that so?

Where is your point of determination?

The needs to ensure that it will forever be yours?

STalker

Term used for those who add someone in the social networking websites to view any other people unrelated to them.

Sounds jerk right?

And yes it is.

Criteria of a stalker's profile:

• They do not put any real picture of them
• They add someone real close to you.
• Easy words, they add all of your friends without knowing them.
• They copy your status here and there (like provoking you)
• They add people randomly, so that people view them as active user.

You have one of the criteria at the above?

Then yes you are stalkers.

Then what we should do to this type of people readers?

Block?Delete as friend?

Or else we need to delete our own account i think will be better aite?

Don't bother

Years ago, someone told me i should take caution when it comes to love.

I did.

But then, everything just ruining up my life.

What i did doesn't seem right.

Love and tears are made to be one.

Red flags come.

White flags up.

Win and lose.

Up and down.

All things are given partners.

Completing each other.

Completing each circle.

Completing one another.

All the pain the tears i've cried, and all the times that passed us by.

For some love is a waste.

For some its priceless.

None of words can describe the best meaning of it.

Falling out of love is hard.

Falling for betrayal is worst.

Broken trust and broken hearts.

By hurting others, don't you think that you yourself are hurts?

Keep on torturing yourself instead of other people.

You might discover that you are not happy at all.

Not even for a second.

to turn into evil devil takes you second, to be noble, take you thousand years.

think.

P/s: this is my blog. whats written on it was what have crossed my mind.

some of it might be meaningful, some of it meaningless.

So don't bother.

Posto posto!

Oh, sedikit update pasal kerjaya.

Semakin menikmati hari dan kerja2 yang dilakukan.

Semakin terhibur dengan gelagat rakan sehotel.

Semakin merasakan masa ini terisi.

Semakin merasakan sahabat di perlis kembali ramai.

Semakin merasakan kebahagiaan bersama keluarga.

Semakin merasakan diri ini dimanjai.

Semakin gemuk akibat pulang kerja dan tidur.

Semakin tidak reti memandu akibat dihantar dan dijemput ke tempat kerja oleh orang tua.

Semakin pemalas kemas rumah akibat merasakan komitmen kerja sangat besar.

Semakin tidak sabar mendapat kerja tetap.

Semakin tidak sabar menempuhi temuduga-temuduga yang bakal dihadapi.

Semakin harus melupakan seketika niat menyambung pelajaran.

Harap maaf Master of Office system management.

I'll keep u in my waiting list.

And i'll go for you one day.

Just wait.

Love,

Diba.

Terpuruk di mawarni sepi~

Oh sunyi bosan.

Terpinga-pinga ternganga-nganga.

hohoho~~

Cool?

What?

Ice is so cool.

Yes and it is true.

Hurt?

No i'm not.

Sometimes it might be true.

Success?

Proud, glad.

Seldom achieved.

Love?

I'm into it.

Yet it always hurt.

Argue?

Always.

On my way of killing somebody.

Hello readers :D

Thank you ;)

Dear Mother~

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Family

is a gift.

Even though sometimes fighting and quarreling each other.

Less than a day, we will talk to each other back.

Same goes with me and my mother lately.

Pity her.

She is really stress about her only daughter who is really stubborn, selfish, keep on blaming her for what had happened.

For something that she stopped me from doing.

I do admit, i'm a bad girl mother.

I'm sorry for being such a bad daughter.

And i'm regret each time you are hurt.

You might not know each time we had war even if just talks war, it hurts mother.

I can't stand seeing you with your frust and disappointed face for having such an evil daughter.

But mother, you don't know.

My tears always fall when it did happen.

You don't know.

Cause you thought this daughter is really not a kind-hearted, evil devil girl.

Yes i am, but not towards you mother.

You are my only mother, the whole world are craving for a perfect mother, with endlessly love, touch, attention, care and concern, i do have everything.

Still, i'm not thankful with the "GREATEST GIFT EVER" a great mother like you.

I'm sorry for all tears that fall, sorry for my bad attitudes, sorry for not saying sorry at times, sorry for everything, sorry for not appreciating you at best.

I will, and will always be trying to be such a great great daughter ever for you mother.

The time is about to come.

Just wait mother.

No longer then i'll be the greatest girl ever that you might be proud of.

Someone that protect you from the threat out there.

Someone that will take care of you for each seconds of your life in the future.

Someone that will give the world to you, gold, earth, globes, loves,. all that you request for mother.

p/s mother, i love you. even though i'm not showing it, the deep inside of me you know that, i'll never ever stop loving you. And each time, i'm praying that you will always be beside, in front of me. Live the life forever with me.

Kerja

Iya, sedang.

Di kaunter ini.

Sri Mawarni Inn~

datanglah ye~~~~ ;)))

Lesson Learnt.

Money = makes people crazy.

Why = ?

Let me explain.

No money:

Equals to =

• No meal for the day.
• No top up for your phone call and text.
• No fuel for your car.
• No loiter with friends.
• No money to pay for your drinks.
• No shopping.
• No new shoes.
• No new clothes.
• No new cars.
• No new accessories.
• Barred telecommunication line.
• No dates.
• No fun trips.
• No entertainment.
• No snacks.
• No new lingerie.
• No new perfumes.
• No new furnitures.
• No new games.
• No new handbags.

I'm not saying money is everything.

But it something that is really compulsory of living your life.

It is something that might make your life partially complete and bring happiness instead of starvation and fights as a family.

Hey, no money, as if you are letting your family live in poverty and starvation.

Yeah, some people said, money is ain't everything.

Admit.

For sure everything is just not everything.

Even though you have everything in your hand, it still nothing for some.

Why is that so?

Oh easy, people are seldom grateful of something that they have.

Everything is just not enough.

As if they want to have all in the world in their hands.

Learning and working.

2 different activities.

With each enroll to something new that need to be discover and learn.

I enjoyed learning things. But in the meantime, i also eager to jump into a working environment.

I have my own reasons for things happened in my life which people might not know and i might not share with them.

I do appreciate things, people, moment, time, money, anything, but it has to be something that i like and something that is really meaningful to me.

But i do good things to people, and as usual, i always tend to get bad things back.

I don't know the reason why and why it keeps happening.

And now, i had receive a job offer.

Not a "high status" job. Just an ordinary receptionist and admin assistant.

Sigh. Its not that i'm not thankful, i am. Very. Gladly to get this job.

Cause my parents smile.

Smile why? I'm close, near, in front of them 24 -7.

Even though i myself did not satisfy, but at least, it makes them smile, i feel glad.

Sometimes i just realize, am i doing things for the satisfaction of other people or for my own utilization? My own satisfaction?

It seems not.

As what have been sing over on and on on and on~

QUe Sera Sera,

What ever will be,

Will be..

The future not ours to see~

Que SEra Sera,

What will be..

Will be..

It takes two to tango~

Two to feel the warm, the touch, and the bond created.

Two to be close to each other, supporting and making the best moves.

Two to keep on moving, spinning, hugging.

Two to hold each other tight, avoid from mislead the steps.

Two to keep each other from falling apart, and hurt.

Two to care and to concern the perfection of the movement.

Two to dance in the rhythm of love.

It also takes two to be in love.

Two to love and to be loved.

Two to care and to be cared.

Two to hug and to be hugged.

Two to kiss and to be kissed.

Two to appreciate and to be appreciated.

Two to give and get the lesson.

Two to concern and to be concerned.

Its just two.

Because two is better than one.

Bakal ?

Apakah?

Adalah ;)

Doakan yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri.

Dua hari yang lepas asyik bencikan diri sendiri.

Menyesal kerana tidak membuat simpanan yang baik untuk masa hadapan.

Padahal mendapat gaji buta semasa belajar.

Diba diba diba~

Stupid of you.

Yes i am, everyone else, no need to scold me.

I realize myself that i'm wrong wrong wrong. urgh.

Keras Hati~

Memang,

saya seorang yang keras hati keras kepala. keras semuanya.

Sekian.

Kerja

Datanglah ;)

Can't wait ;)

Ayahanda Bonda~

Keadaan sebegini telah membuatkan daku tertekan.

Amat.

Sumpah.

bukan salahkan mereka.

Untuk kebaikan sendiri.

Paham.

Tapi jangan sedrastik ini.

Hmm.

Semakin tegang dengan mereka.

Habislah.

Oh kerja, datanglah cepat.

Agar aku lupakan ketegangan ini.

Mariati, nampaknya kita mempunyai masalah yang sama.

Dikawal guardian angel, 24 7.

Itu, tak boleh.

Ini, tak boleh.

Kenapa? Kata bawah tanggungan.

hmmm.

air mata menitis sejenak.

tepat dihadapan wajah bonda.

Bonda tak terkata apa~

Bonda bertanya kenapa~

Anakanda menjawab~

Tiada apa.

Depresi.

tekanan.

Ketidakstabilan emosi~~

itu saja.

Wajah itu wajah ini~

LAgu lazat~

Setenang air di kolam
Begitu wajahmu
Gelora hati di dalam
Tiada yang tahu

Sentiasa terukir
Senyum di bibir
Lindungi perasaan
Di balik gurauan

Namun dari riak mata
Kudapat membaca
Ada garis keresahan
Jiwa antara kita

Dalam gelak dan tawa
Hati terluka
Di dalam keriuhan
Engkau kesepian

Seperti engkau jua
Kukenal erti duka
Peritnya keyakinan
Dipersiakan

Seperti kau alami
Kutahu erti sepi
Mengharung kepahitan ini
Ohh sendiri

Setenang-tenang wajahmu
Tidak setenangmu
Tidak berdaya kau lindungi
Kehampaan ini
Dalam senyum tawaku mereka tahu
Diriku kecundang dalam percintaan

Besawang-sawang

Status = Job hunting secara tegar.

Berpinar-pinar mata mencari kerja.

Menunggu respon dari company2~

Kebosanan dengan duduk dirumah dan mendapat elaun ayah bonda~

hahhahhahahhaa

Budak Tecik itu~

Budak tecik kesayangan hamba. ;))

Layan paramore x? :)

yeap, layan jugak laaa

Ask me anything

someone care of u..hows yr feel?

i feel good ;)
cause i like attention and cares from somebody ;)

Ask me anything

Belokku~

Belokku kesunyian kah?

mahap kaka mu ini tidak membelaimu baek2~

kaka mu ini kurang baek moodnya~nanti kaka mu ini kembali ya sayang?

muah2~

Bullshitting me.

Someone had bullshitting me and kantoi busuk just now.

hahahha

Shiet shiet shiet.

Kalau lah aku~

Sentiasa keseorangan, aku bosan.

Sentiasa berteman, aku bosan.

Sentiasa sibuk, aku bosan.

Sentiasa lengang, aku bosan.

Sentiasa marah, aku bosan.

Sentiasa tenang, aku best.

Semuanya serba tak kena buat masa dan tika ini.

Biarlah masa yang tentukan semuanya.

Let the dreams remain as dreams.

I would rather choose to let the dream be dream.

And not turn to fact and what i have to face.

I'm not that strong enough to face all the challenges that comes.

I'm not as strong as you, you and you.

I would like to be as strong as you, you and you.

Who may not let people affect you in any ways that they will do so.

I would like to have the unique capabilities in you, you and you.

That i might not have right now.

And i have to learn it to be like you, you and you.

I would like to have a heart that will never be break like you you and you.

So that this world will not be able to break me in any ways.

So that i probably strong enough to face the truth behind each lies.

I would like to fake a smile like you you and you.

So that i can make people around me smiling and happy.

So that i can see they are happy instead of me.

I would like to speak in harsh words, like you you you.

But i rather speak softly and gently so that people can understand it in a proper manner.

And avoid from saying sorry after regret of my words.

I would like to be like you you you.

In fact, i just can't.

Mariati, sometimes i just adore the way you are.

How you stay in your own ways even though people are sicks of you.

How you remain calm meanwhile people keep crying.

How you have your strength, power, determination in you that other people might not have.

How you may live alone, while other people need companion.

I just adore the way you are, but i just can't be you.

Brave enough, strong, stubborn, but you may stand alone in your way and be in crowd while gaining people respects. Not like those who talks a lot, but stay in the middle of useless people.

Its just a dream of being you.

I'd rather dream of keep myself better.

And be in the middle of somewhere.

Surrounds by important people.

Who might build me up in the highest level of the world, work. and etc.

Diba, keep it up~

You're almost there.

Be someone you want to be.

Don't be someone people want you to be.

If they want you, they'll accept you the way you are.

If they do not need you, in any way you are trying to be what they want to, they are still rejecting you. urgh ;((((

See?

When a girl gives u attention you said it rubbish.

Lots of phone calls, text, morning wishes, gudnyte call.

When a girl ignores, u said she is rubbish.

hell, no phone calls, no text at all, no more sweet wishes.

Then who is the real damn rubbish?

There's a quote saying "don't get mad when a girl cares too much. do get worry when they start to not give a damn bout you".